A thought for today... or maybe a few... I asked Mac to take a photo of me today and my initial thoughts were of how ‘big’ I was. I nearly didn’t post the photo because I was ashamed. Yes, ashamed. This is how we’ve been conditioned to think these days- to actually worry about how much space we occupy on earth and how we will be judged. How utterly devastating is that? My body is quite incredible- as are ours all! It’s birthed children, it’s protected me from heat and cold, it continues to (mostly) work despite the hatred I’ve felt towards it. It’s carried on in various sizes- bigger or smaller, it’s still ME, and how much space I occupy does not determine who I am, good or bad, kind or evil, funny or miserable I am as a human. I refuse to praise people now for weight reduction- it does not make you a better person for losing weight and my feelings towards you are still the same. You are amazing no matter what size. To praise someone for taking up less space indicates they were worthy of our praise before. Your worth is NOT determined by size. End of. I am truly sorry for the times I felt I was helping out talking about how to lose weight, further perpetuating this idea what we weren’t worthy at a larger size. I am truly sorry for the years I have wasted trying to occupy less space. I am truly sorry for thinking it would make me happier to be that person who’s life would be better once I ‘lost x amount of pounds’. I am truly sorry for the years I spent bingeing and restricting in order to reach someone else’s idea of what is healthy and/or beautiful. I am so sorry for talking about dieting and succumbing to diet culture. I am heartbroken to realise I’ve been sucked into hating myself so much by society. I am sorry for years of punishing myself with exercise in order to ‘earn’ food instead of loving how it feels to move for the joy. We don’t have to ‘earn’ the right to eat food- we need food to live! I am sorry for judging food as ‘good’ or ‘bad’ and ‘clean’ and other such #NUTRIBOLLOCKS. Food is food. End of. It does not have any kind of morality attached to it. It’s only ‘clean’ if you wash it with soap and water. I’m sorry for feeling like we needed labels on how we eat and who we are. I will not morally judge anyone on how or what they chose to eat. And finally, I am so so so sorry for hating myself. Your size is fluid and can and will change. It deserves only love. Stop fat shaming. Stop judging. Stop hating yourself. Stop comparing. Recognise the wonder that you are and lavishing yourself with all the love it deserves. Kassi x